deep thoughts?

How u every wonder, as u grow older, the people around you seems to be lesser and lesser...
I started to get this feeling lately.. However, it doesn't really bugs me too much...

Because i get to see through people around me clearer.. and also i've learn a great lesson...

You see, some people who you think you know them so well, for so long.. can turn out to be strangers out of a sudden... you thought you gave them your whole-hearted friendship and inevitably you thought you deserved something in return. Sometimes things ain't that cool... And that's something I learn, as a lesson. I used to clingue on something so hard, i felt myself drowning inside the deep hollow hole inside me. Sometimes the emotion grew so strong i found myself weep for nothing. Someone came over and told me that it's not worth my tears, they don't worth my tears. But the little concious inside just keep asking me to try, I can make a difference! Well... things ain't as easy as I thought.

The other day, another person came by and ask me to treasure those who have been doing so much for me, and I've simply choose to ignore their effort and still hang on to those people who are hopeless like an idiot -_- ya, i'm an idiot to have realize this after so long.. There are people who thought of me whenever something crops up, cares about me when I was sick, gives me encourangement when i have exams or performances, and most importantly - willing to CRY and laugh with me, and share every bits of my life. Honestly, since i started studying in UCSI, there's only 1 person who treated me this way, as far as i can thought of (of course in Taylor's i have baboon darling~! hehe muckas~ and Stefie also when i was in my hometown ^^) But i found out she changed a lot.. she's not the old her again, but still~ I understand that people do change. Although i still prefer the 'old' her when i just got to know her, she's still someone important to me, and someone who treated me full-hearted since i knew her. I feel guilty for not appreciating her for a moment, due to the changes in her attitude (not entirely my fault also!)
Well, the person I am talking bout is - Kong Su Mei. (touch not? finally the sentimental post u've been waiting for is finally here.. haha)

Besides, I've made some unexpected ties of friendship with some people who I never thought i will be so close with. I feel that, as long as you can use you heart to see people around you, you might find them very interesting...

Well, i guess this is some life up and downs I must go through. And remember this, I don't give a shit if you don't appreciated what I've done! It's your mistake to lose a friend like me!
*lift head high and walk away*

Spongebob Suarepants Musicals!

Hey ppl~!! One of my favourite catoon is coming to Spore!

SPONGEBOB SUAREPANTS!!!

WooOOOottttt!!!

Here's the details.. (cc: Su Mei)


If you're interested let me know pls! :p

DATE
31 May - 06 Jun 2007 12.30pm, 4pm & 7.30pm

VENUE
Singapore Expo

TICKET PRICE (Exclude Booking Fee)
Standard - S$68, S$48, S$38
Please add to above price $2 Booking Fee for tickets above $20 and $1 Booking Fee for tickets below $20. Charges include GST where applicable.

LATEST NEWS: Buy 8 tickets and stand to win a pass to meet SpongeBob at an exclusive Meet & GreetInternet Booking starts on 16 Apr 2007, 9am.Other Sales Channel starts on 16 Apr 2007, 10am.

Synopsis
Catch the World Premiere of the First-Ever SpongeBob SquarePants Live Show!SpongeBob Squarepants! You've seen him flipping Krabby Patties, you've seen him rip his pants, and now, you can see him live on stage for the first time ever!Swim along with SpongeBob as he chases his life-long dream of flying with the jellyfish! All his and Patrick's efforts to fly are fruitless. Then, he tucks his hair dryer into his pants, his pants inflate and he can fly! But trouble awaits him! It's a story of courage and coming of age mixed together with humor. Don't miss all the nautical nonsense with SpongeBob, Patrick, and all their friends in their first musical adventure: SpongeBob Squarepants Live! The Sponge Who Could Fly! Catch the World Premiere of the First-Ever SpongeBob SquarePants Live Show!

SpongeBob Squarepants! You've seen him flipping Krabby Patties, you've seen him rip his pants, and now, you can see him live on stage for the first time ever!

Swim along with SpongeBob as he chases his life-long dream of flying with the jellyfish! All his and Patrick's efforts to fly are fruitless. Then, he tucks his hair dryer into his pants, his pants inflate and he can fly! But trouble awaits him! It's a story of courage and coming of age mixed together with humor.

Don't miss all the nautical nonsense with SpongeBob, Patrick, and all their friends in their first musical adventure: SpongeBob Squarepants Live! The Sponge Who Could Fly!
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DURATION
Approx 1 hr 40 minsInterval: Approx 20 mins

It really hurts so much...

It just hurts so much when the person you love and care the most do not regard you importance of existance in their life.

This is so unfair.

And i most certainly hate to see her cries. :(

Exaggerated?? I don't think so...

Last two days, a guy named Chris called me. I can’t explain how excited I am after talking to him. How I wish I could just scream out loud~ Finally!! I’ve found a band that plays similar type of music my ex-band used to play and most importantly, he replied me! How I wish I could fly back to KL now and have a jamming session with those people. I don’t care how it will turn out; I just want to have fun! And I really do hope things will work out smoothly. ^^

It has been a while I go around searching for vacant band to join after the “great lost” of mine… It’s true that I myself was shocked to be carried away by the overwhelmed feeling deep down inside my soul. Nobody can understands how I endure the sleepless nights and hatred that had grew so hard inside me which nearly cost me to lost the most important person of my life. It tranquilizes me. No joke. I’ve never realized the passion inside me grew so huge, so hard and so fast even I myself could not resist. I tried to free myself from that emotion, I tried to bottle it up, and I tried to run away from it. But it stays silently in me until this very day. It’s true that I lied to people around me, even myself. I told myself to listen to my mother and friends, for it is not my profession, nor it is a professional thing to do (according to them). And I should do something more meaningful, something more professional, something belongs to the “higher-class people”.

Seriously, who cares?! I’ve realized something lately and I shall stop lying to myself. Having a band of my own had been my dream since I was young, and I shall fulfill this dream and not to be ashamed of it. And I shall give the credit to Avril Lavigne. Since there are totally no bands to be seen or heard in the place where I grew up, she’s my only influence and model to be followed. So what I am a classical student? I can do something contemporary student can do and I vow to do it better! However, it has been a mistake for me to search for the suitable persons in school that have the same passion, and most importantly, the same bond. It’s so much harder than I thought. People don’t seem to give a damn to u when they feel that u have nothing. But the problem is, they judge people so fast that they can’t even see how it happens. Well, I’ve given up the idea of depending on my school, and try to be smart. Maybe it’s my problem. Or maybe luck doesn’t fall on my side. And this is the main reason I clanged so hard on my previous band when they abandoned it, and make myself miserable because I have a feeling I will never find another band like them ever. Therefore, I’ve decided to go on my own even people disapprove me. So what if I really can’t sing as well as somebody u know? I have faith and passion stronger than anyone else. I am sure of that. I’ve been through so much I don’t mind endure even more just to achieve what i wanted.

Because this is my dream.

Holiday!!

Just started my holiday.. man, i am so glad it's finally here!!

Went to incubus tribute the other day~ and it was so damn cool! seriously.. i never thought Malaysia's underground bands have such good quality! (baboon! now i know why u love incubus so much last time d! haha...)

But too bad i din take any pictures.. so ntg to show u all..

From the bottom of my heart: they are superb!

Then i went to zoo on Saturday!!

So happy... *la la la la la*



It sounds lame at first when my bf suggested zoo.. but on second thought, it's kinda fun too!

Lai lai... show u our pretty pretty pictures ^^


At the entrance..



Aiya, cannot see my head~



OK~ make my neck longer then can see d...

Our ticket...

Actually it's kinda cheap thou... RM 15 only...

Inside zoo..

New soft toy!

(p/s: not mine.. someone bought it for himself -_-)

This elephant is super greedy i tell u!!

He snatch the food from me twice!

Nice lake... hmm~

Eagle-wannabee!

We secretly took a shop's product without permission..^^

Marilyn Manson wanna-bee!

It seriously scared the kids around him tat day... -_-"

To the Aquarium!Yeah!

He spotted a cave and took of his shirt to take photos~~ AA~aaa!! so memaluukann!!Caveman -wannabee!

wahaha!! my silly bf...

Wahaha! tummy damn big oi!!

Best picture taken!

Ostrich wanna-bee..

Cow wanna-bee!

huh?!

his deer quite cute.. hee

Ah Soon?!?(Bu li mao...)

Wanted to take baboon picture for my dearest babun but it rains! -_-" damn...

In children's corner...

Really got mickey mouse o!!

Woo i love snakes!!

But they hamsap!! >.<

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Jay: Waa how come the hair so rough one?Jay: The ear also so hard! -_-"

This is called pony-tail..

I wonder why the animals wink at us so much that day... Hmm...

See?

Leng zai...

To the reptilia center!

Woah!! Naruto toad does exist!! O_O"

We spotted a lizard that day..

Doing a kung-fu pose!
Look at his soaks!! It's his sister's!

Later...

Taken during elephant show..

Taken during multi-animal show... (sounds like an animal with 4 heads..)

He volunteered to go out and challenge the ape~!http://www.youtube.com/v/ZC0VShK8Tso" type="application/x-shockwave-flash" width="425" height="350">

And this is the reward!

Back stage photo shooting with the apes! free one o~~

Seriously this is the first time i felt that apes are actually super adorable!! and they are so friendly! especially the smaller ape.. she loves to hug ppl around until the trainer scold her cos she cant stop hugging me! haha... super cute!

It's such a pain to see that they are going to extinct soon in this world.. althought they have strenght 4X stronger than human, but they still look so fragile... and they still cant escape the fate being killed in the wild..

I suddenly recall of a wish i made when i was young, i hope i can grow up to be someone that can speak for the living things around me, someone to protect them.. i forget that wish i made, cos i've chosen music...