Heart? Brain?

It's been a while i write something like this... the feeling came back to me again... words just keep flowing in my head and it's so unbearable and i must write it down to ease the uneasiness...

But i never write in such early time in a day..

Well, what is wrong with me you ask?
Hmm... let's just say that the other part of my body doesn't want to listen to me anymore..

Confused??

Let's put it this way:
Normally i don't really believe (although some part of me do, if not i wont write like this) that human can think in two ways, or communicate within themselve in two ways..

One is by using the brain, the other is using the heart.

But i do now.

Yes, my heart and my brain has conflict ideas now...

I'm not lost. Although everytime i appear to be, or even say i am lost. I know what i am thinking and what i should do.

The reason why i say i am lost is just an excuse not to think or consider what the other part of me is trying to say. Because my brain ask me to act rationally and do not do something that will make me regret.

However... it gets harder to bear.. my hands are holding a precious gem that everyone else envy and i am proud of, and i know i will never ever let go...

But somehow my eyes start to glance other side of the world.

Sigh...

I hate myself when i do things like that. I feel so vulnerable, so.... like the old me.

That's why this time i rather hurt myself than hurt other people...
Because by feeling that way i will able to wake myself up, and focus more on things that is more important.

Because i will always follow what my brain says........... for now.

"Starts from 12"

I was touched.... when i see this...
Overwhelmed by sweet memories...

This the theme song for the short film i took in 2005 name "Starts from 12". This short clips reminds me of all the good times we've been through in making this film.

The film will be upload soon, so for now... just watch this MTV first....
(I've very weird hair style in 2005 -_-")

Song Title: Reflection
Song: Kent Ang
Lyrics: Hui Kee
Singer: Hui Kee
Guitarist: Kent Ang
Sound mixer: MiMi

Lyrics:

独自开车走在无人的街上，看着车子里的望后镜，

看见反映的景色，仿佛是甜蜜到带，

沉重的空气围绕着我，我无法挣扎 只能够无助的逃亡，

雨水无情打在我脸上 泪水融进冰冷的雨水中

流进破碎的心房 我知道这一次我 真的 真的 受到了伤害

可是你 你却又视而不理

当我发现你手线上的温柔 已经慢慢离我而去

只剩下寂寞空气 陪伴着孤独的我一直走下去

当你离开我生命的那一刻 我的世界从此一无所有

我的影子仍然在寻找 那个曾经拥有过的温暖

This is.... very shocking.... O_O"

One day i passed by the booth in my school's lobby... and i saw this banner saying "Malaysia Today You're Hired!".

Out of curiousity, me and my friend stepped into the interview room just to know how people get interview.. :p

After 2 months,

I got this....

Dear Tan Hui Kee,

Congratulations! We are pleased to inform you that you have been selected to participate in “Malaysian Today You’re Hired!” as part of our search for the next Malaysian Corporate Hotshot. You are one of the 50 successful participants to receive a chance to vie for a job with one of the 7 cutting-edge companies and RM 5,000 cash!

We hope you will find participating in the challenge both an enriching and empowering experience. We wish you all the best and look forward to seeing you!

Thank you

Warmest Regards,

Eliza Mukherjee
ELIZA MUKHERJEE
Executive, MARCOMM

No. 1 Youth Weekly

The Borneo Sun Sdn Bhd
Lot 3.05, 3rd Floor, Podium Block
Plaza Berjaya
12 Jalan Imbi
55100 Kuala Lumpur

My first CME concert! ^-^

I was so surprised and thrilled that i was selected to perform on this semester's CME concert! ^o^ and i will never forget what Dr. P'ng said to me that day and not to mention... he gave me a flying kiss ! *wahahahahhaha*

Most importantly, i never expect our playing can turn out to be so good! hehehehe :p

We are actually the very first pair who played this piece in our school~! and it's a major concert repertoire~

*drooollLL~~* wakakakka.. *run around and screaming to my pets*

Here's a little bit about the piece :

Debussy's Prelude to the Afternoon of a Faun

This is probably Debussy's best-known orchestral work. It was inspired by a pastoral of Stephane Mallarme, evoking a pagan landscape in which the faun- a mythological creature of the forest who is half man, half goat- awakes in the woods and tries to remember; was he visited by three lovely nymphs or was this but a dream? He will never know. The sun is warm, the earth fragrant. He curls himself up and falls into a wine-drugged sleep.

Now let's watch the clip ~! :p

Hope u enjoy it... la la la la la

Stay away from me............!!!!!!!!!

Personality Disorder Test Results

Paranoid 78% 49%
Schizoid 38% 53%
Antisocial 62% 47%
Schizotypal 82% 53%
Borderline 62% 47%
Histrionic 86% 43%
Narcissistic 58% 41%
Avoidant 34% 39%
Dependent 70% 37%
Obsessive-Compulsive 74% 40%

*scores in gray are the average web score

Oh my god!! i am sooooo above average!!! stay awayyyyyyyyyyy.... from .... me!!! i have personality disorder?!?! wahhhhH~~~

*ehem* for those who dunno how what some of the terms mean... check out the explainations:

Disorder Info

Eccentric Personality Disorders: Paranoid, Schizoid, SchizotypalIndividuals with these disorders often appear odd or peculiar.

Paranoid Personality Disorder - individual generally tends to interpret the actions of others as threatening.

Schizoid Personality Disorder - individual generally detached from social relationships, and shows a narrow range of emotional expression in various social settings.

Schizotypal Personality Disorder - individual is uncomfortable in close relationships, has thought or perceptual distortions, and peculiarities of behavior.

Dramatic Personality Disorders: Antisocial, Borderline, Histrionic, and NarcissisticIndividuals with these disorders have intense, unstable emotions, distorted self-perception, and/or behavioral impulsiveness.

Antisocial Personality Disorder - individual shows a pervasive disregard for, and violation of, the rights of others.

Borderline Personality Disorder - individual shows a generalized pattern of instability in interpersonal relationships, self-image, and observable emotions, and significant impulsiveness.

Histrionic Personality Disorder - individual often displays excessive emotionality and attention seeking in various contexts. They tend to overreact to other people, and are often perceived as shallow and self-centered.

Narcissistic Personality Disorder - individual has a grandiose view of themselves, a need for admiration, and a lack of empathy that begins by early adulthood and is present in various situations. These individuals are very demanding in their relationships.

Anxious Personality Disorders: Avoidant, Dependent, Obsessive-CompulsiveIndividuals with these disorders often appear anxious or fearful.

Avoidant Personality Disorder - individual is socially inhibited, feels inadequate, and is oversensitive to criticismDependent Personality Disorder - individual shows an extreme need to be taken care of that leads to fears of separation, and passive and clinging behavior.

Obsessive-Compulsive Personality Disorder - individual is preoccupied with orderliness, perfectionism, and control at the expense of flexibility, openness, and efficiency.