Another morning...

I woke up this morning... Hoping for a better day...

Yes, i did.

But the pain roused back at me.. painfully reminds me what had happen... telling me that I lost someone i treasured so much.

Everything ain't the same anymore. The smile, the laughter, the promises....
They are just a tool for me to cover up my misery...
But they cannot do anything to heal my wound.

My wound will always be bleeding..
THe memory will haunt me always...
The pain will still remains..

And yet, i feel so numb...
Naively thinking that all these are dreams..

Shld i talk to that girl?
Shld i pretend nothing happen?
Shld i believe in what he told me?
Shld i just walk out and never turn back?
Shld i be torturing myself?
Shld i make my revenge?
Shld i show him how painful it is?

Shld i bleed?

I dunno.... I just need a hug... and lots of answers. Sincere and true answers..

My soul was murdered...

18/2/2008... I saw something that made my heart skipped a beat... something that will haunt me forever... something that cruelly sliced my soul apart... leaving it astray and waiting to be decomposed...

All the while i thought i will only see this kind of incident from TV shows... or even from some of my frens, i suppose... never did i expect, or dream that such thing will happen to me. 

The feeling is like, bounding my hands with metal ropes filled with torn, letting it sunk deep into my skin and let the blood ooze out little by little.. all i can do is wait for all the blood to run dry... nobody can hear my scream, or my pain.. and eventually, i will die.

Later, the feeling will spread to my whole body, run thru my veins an blood vessels, affecting my immune system and slow down my heart beat. I can feel nothing. All i know is i am floating, to no where. Now i cant feel my hands anymore. They are not part of my body already. I'm standing alone.. All alone in a place that i am familiar with.

All the promises turn to ashes, and they will disappear when the wind blows hard.. So hard that i cant even open my eyes. Or i choose not to open my eyes. Refused to accept the fact that i was hurt, so badly, refuse to forgive. But my heart is still reaching out, trying its best to move till the last seconds, vow to continue till the very end. Its definitely painful, exhausting and heartbreaking.. But, love overwhelmed mistakes, and forgiveness soon took its part.

The person i love the most just torn my soul apart. No matter how hard u try to sew it back, the scar will be forever visible.

NICI soft toy performance! ^_^

Finally my two little darlings have their very own video!! ahhaha

Me and my bf was watching one of our fav anime~ Samurai Champloo and suddenly this tune was in one of the episodes.. and i dunno why they sing this while explaining the sex culture in Japan -_-"

Come come let's watch the clip.. *applause pls*



Beat box: Teddy
Melody: Yang Yang

XD

Malaysian Today's You Are Hired Competition

Remember that i mentioned about a competition i joined not too long ago??

Here are the pictures and details!!

This is the banner of the competition, and also the banner that attracted me to go for the interview! haha.. and i was really shocked that i got chosen for the competition!

Something even more shocking...

Hokkien beng joining the competition?!(Opss.. shldn't judge ppl by the look huh? :p)

OKie.. now let me show u the competition venue~~It's on the 10th floor in Time Square (which is that first time that i actually walk to that area), just inside the food court...

I cant believe that i actually stayed in Times Square building for more than 20 hours!! OMG~~

The first task was given out by the MC of the day (the guy with a mic and black shirt), can see me at the end of the table? that's my team's table. Our team is EMPOWER~ wohoho... (~_~)

The first task is kinda easy. The only thing we need to do is ask people to sign up survey form for us. The only thing that the organizers gave us is one piece of survey form and RM 10.

So, i ran off like a crazy woman with my heels from 10th floor to 7th floor and to 5th floor, looking for photocopy shop. Finally... we found one that actually opens 8.30am.

Well, this picture us quite decieving... I AM the one who actually bargained for the price of the survey forms lo!! From RM20 for 500 pieces to RM10 for 400 pieces... pretty good huh?? :p I have the potential to be a full-time auntie! haha...

Guess what?! Our team got number two! only 1 mark away from the first team! and 60% of the survey forms are from me! (i never lie ok.. -_-)

well, the 2nd task starts right after the first one. Those ppl are crazy! they though we are some super human or something. And i must say that the lunch that they provide tasted horrible ~_~

In the 2nd task, we required to plan a street event to promote the Malaysian Today's newspaper. So, all the teams are asked to spread out and we have exactly 4 hours to prepare our proposal to the director of this competition.

This is the picture of the director(the lady with the red dress), beside her is the preson who wrote the blog, (http://www.youarehired.wordpress.com/) and also where i steal all the pictures from :p She is a gorgeous lady, very strict and knowlegable i must say.

After we completed the proposal, we need to approach the director to ask if she approve our ideas. So, when we confronted her, i was so nervous, although i am not the one who talked to her. It's because we will be kicked out of the game if our ideas were rejected for 2 times. Therefore, when she talked to us, she asked who contributed the 1st idea, then my team mate say is Hui Kee. Then she looked at me and say that she dun really agree with that idea. -_-" Ok, so we moved on to the 2nd idea, and she asked again, who contributed this idea. And again, my team mate said, is Hui Kee. So, she looked at me again, and said that this idea is not appropriate for this event -_-" Sooooooo, the 3rd idea, she asked again, who's idea is this, and my team mates looked at me and i chuckled. And she just realized that all the ideas are from me. She was impressed. And she told me that she very much appreciates me contributing the ideas and she said that i am very creative! haha~ But in the end she rejected 3 of my ideas, and accepts only 2.. :(

Wondering why no pictures for 2nd task??

Because the pictures they took, cant see my face!!

See~!

Iskh -_-"

And i wonder why they put up soooooooooo damn little pictures on the blog.. That day there are like.. more than 15 cameras there u know?! T_T they took so many of my pictures and they only posted those that cant see my face -_-

Ok ok, stop complaining and get on with the story..

So, the semi-final is to carry out the plan that we did the day before.

But!! on the day itself, on of my team mates vanished! he quite the game... more like.. he cant wake up that day... what kinda lame excuse is that?!

Anywyz, is was a total disastor. I made a mistake. I should have finish all the art work the day before, because on that day itself, there is no time for us to do all those. The reason that we din do that is cos we thought we are not suppose to do that because everything have to do it on the spot. And we were wrong. Damn. And my team mates go "what shld we do, Hui Kee?" "what to paint?" "what to cut?" They all drove me crazy. And yes, i was the youngest and i was leading the whole team, who are apparently Business and Marketing students -_-" WTF~ (and yes~ i am very proud of myself ^-^)

We're suppose to wear caps with some wording that will attract the crowd to approach us, and a be human sandwiches! Yup... they look really... ridiculous >.<

Hard at work.. At least this is my 'solo' picture :p

Other group hard at work too..

My team is kinda messed up at first but later, everything was set to go!

This is how i look lik, walking around Time Square for 5 hours!!!

I kept chanting.. pls dun let me meet my fren there pls dun let me meet my fren there pls dun....

Well.. we're not the only team tat look ridiculous thou :p

So, after 5 hours of running, shouting, kneeling, panting and scaring people.. The result is out...

I was sent home :'( But the MC acknowleges my effort and the heart of willing to share my ideas with other people in front of everyone! I nearly cried... i was so touched *sniff*

Well, my fren, Ann Jee's team got into final~ they are pretty good i must say ;)

So, the only thing i got back home is this goodie bag, handed over by the director of this event. Sh said the same thing again to me~ She thank me for joining this competition and she said i was talented and i can go very far, jsut don't give up :)

I went home with lots of happy but tiring memories :) and i knew lots of frens too~ ^-^

Lesson learnt: Must always approach my client and ask questions. Never rely on anyone else eventhough they seems tough and clever. And most importantly, never rely on guys! And i gain 25% of confidence too!

Second lesson:

Never drink more than 2 cans of this thing in a day. Really make u go dizzy and woo-hoo!

Here are the videos!

Finally got the video from my Chamber Music Concert performance the other day..

But the starting of the video is a bit cacat thou -_- will get a better one when my school opens. Front view one ^-^

We played two piece from two different composers.

1) Anton Arensky ~ Suite Op.15 (Romance)
2) Francis Poulenc ~ L' embarquement pour Cythere



Me and Angie, my partner ( this is different partner from the previous semester's concert) were really shocked when we knew that we were selected to play for the concert.

I was really shocked actually because I never though i will be selected to play again!! haha~ really happy ^-^ two semester choosen to perform berturut-turut~ really happy... :D

I hope i will get selected again next semester~~ ^^

Gambateh!!