deep thoughts?

How u every wonder, as u grow older, the people around you seems to be lesser and lesser...
I started to get this feeling lately.. However, it doesn't really bugs me too much...

Because i get to see through people around me clearer.. and also i've learn a great lesson...

You see, some people who you think you know them so well, for so long.. can turn out to be strangers out of a sudden... you thought you gave them your whole-hearted friendship and inevitably you thought you deserved something in return. Sometimes things ain't that cool... And that's something I learn, as a lesson. I used to clingue on something so hard, i felt myself drowning inside the deep hollow hole inside me. Sometimes the emotion grew so strong i found myself weep for nothing. Someone came over and told me that it's not worth my tears, they don't worth my tears. But the little concious inside just keep asking me to try, I can make a difference! Well... things ain't as easy as I thought.

The other day, another person came by and ask me to treasure those who have been doing so much for me, and I've simply choose to ignore their effort and still hang on to those people who are hopeless like an idiot -_- ya, i'm an idiot to have realize this after so long.. There are people who thought of me whenever something crops up, cares about me when I was sick, gives me encourangement when i have exams or performances, and most importantly - willing to CRY and laugh with me, and share every bits of my life. Honestly, since i started studying in UCSI, there's only 1 person who treated me this way, as far as i can thought of (of course in Taylor's i have baboon darling~! hehe muckas~ and Stefie also when i was in my hometown ^^) But i found out she changed a lot.. she's not the old her again, but still~ I understand that people do change. Although i still prefer the 'old' her when i just got to know her, she's still someone important to me, and someone who treated me full-hearted since i knew her. I feel guilty for not appreciating her for a moment, due to the changes in her attitude (not entirely my fault also!)
Well, the person I am talking bout is - Kong Su Mei. (touch not? finally the sentimental post u've been waiting for is finally here.. haha)

Besides, I've made some unexpected ties of friendship with some people who I never thought i will be so close with. I feel that, as long as you can use you heart to see people around you, you might find them very interesting...

Well, i guess this is some life up and downs I must go through. And remember this, I don't give a shit if you don't appreciated what I've done! It's your mistake to lose a friend like me!
*lift head high and walk away*