Holiday!!!

I'm so so fucking exhausted...

After my last exam,

I been to heaven twice

Being awake till 6:30 in the morning

Start shopping from 1 till 8:30 at night

Walked for 5km

And now my whole body's tearing apart...

And my face is currently 105 degree celcius!!!
!!burning!!burning!!burning!!burning!!burning!!burning!!burning!!


Man!!

I dun wanna go Petaling Street anymore!!

My 2nd recital!

13th October 2005...

My 2nd recital!!

But damn potong steam cos it's held in room 127 instead of Recital hall....
Cos stupid Celcom used the hall for some event...

I played Schubert's Impromptu in G Flat Major...
It's 6.5 minutes long... damn..

I can still remembered how furious my heart beat was and i nearly fainted outside that classroom when i saw Su Mei smashing the piano -_-""

Aaaa....

Luckily everything's over...

And i just got these!


Ya, this is Su Mei.. ^^


Me me!!
I love this skirt but after i wore on the first day of skol i never wear d....
Cos ppl stares... >.<"

Darling Carolyn was ter too!

Must see tis!!



Can u see the effect??

No??

NVM then...


Chuan Li insisted we do these..



But i like these wo..



Haha... cos i know i am not model type~

See...
Got 2 sesat ppl there too...





Haha.....

Hope that my 3rd recital wont play such a long piece...
I memorized till wanna die d...

Aaaa....

Swallow me....

I am freaking myself out again...

Disappointed....
(dead serious... no strenght to write anymore mumblings...)


Well,

Thanks A Juan for comforting me via SMS... i really appreciate that... He's the only person who is willing to listen for my ''repeating'' moaning... N always be ter for me...

Thanks A Teck for calling me when i was frustrated... He's the only person i thought of calling when i was really down... I hope i'm the best like what u had told me... Luckily u din ask me go airport or say ''Ooo.. icic''...

N an apology to Qi Yu cos i steal her chocolate... I dunno y i really desparate for chocolate when i was down just now... Sorry... *_*

Today's not my day seriously...
I'm sorry mum.... I promise to work harder

Finally... U've grown up...

For once i wonder when will u get yourself a girlfriend...

For once i wonder when U have photos taken together with a girl...

For once i wonder when can i believe that u are not gay....

For once i wonder when will u accept love in your life...


Yup.
Seeing is believing..

Congrats that u've a girlfriend now... ^-^



U're a special guy....
So i guess that girl is special too cos u choosen her? *winks*

Drool....

I kissed a girl today....

Hehehehehe...

Steam......

Wanna see??

TADA!!!


Dun jealous a...

* I'm not lesbian I'm not lesbian I'm not lesbian I'm not lesbian I'm not lesbian I'm not lesbian

Lecture of a life time...

Well.. before i begin my story...

A special thanks and big hugzz..
For MIsS aI rEen (my voice teacher) and MisS GenEvince (my Chamber Music Ensemble teacher)

This morning.. as usual i was pissed at what happened yesterday... (not to mentioned i got back my Aural test paper... well, i passed actually... ntg much thou..)

Till 12 o'clock...

I walked to room 117 for my voice class...

Heart pounding furiously...

1
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Me: "Hi teacher.."

Miss Ai Reen: "Hello..."

Silence....
(I can only hear my heartbeat...)

Miss Ai Reen: "Hmm.. anything to ask me bout what we did for the whole sem?"

Me: "Uh.. no.. not really" (sweating..)

Miss Ai Reen: "Ok.. so... what do u think bout ur performance yesterday?"

Me: "(Screaming) Teacher!! I dunno what happen to me i sing till like shit!!" (Hopping and jumping in the class..)

Miss Ai Reen: "(Calmly..) Tell me what happen.. "

Bla bla bla.....
(The conversation was quite private... so, i sensored tis part)

Miss Ai Reen: "Ok.. first of all... I told u to transpose u dun wan... haiz... See la~ "

Me: "....... But i sing the transpose very weird..."

Bla bla bla...
(Sensored!! private conversation again)

Miss Ai Reen: "Ha, practice like the way i just told u... U can do it~ U're just 19, if u do what i taught u just now... In a few years time u can go for Malaysian Idol!"

Me: "...... Malaysian Idol?! O_o!! Dun joke with me la teacher... So many ppl better than me also din go take part... I'm nobody..."

Miss Ai Reen: "No no no... u think lidat sei lo... U can do it!"

Me: "..........." (Touched)

Miss Ai Reen: "Hey...If people criticize u, prove to them that u can sing!!Dont let them wash down ur confidence!"

Me: "....... Yes, I wont give up "
(Touched.. Tears coming out... tahan tahan...)

Miss Ai Reen: "Go back.. do what i told u to.. and next sem, choose a good song and sing again!"

Gosh~ just 45 minutes i feel so alive again!

And it'z like... those old martial art movie where the teacher ''transfer'' the technics of the Kung Fu to his student...

I feel exactly the same!!

Today i felt as if i learnt 2 semesters' thing in one shot!

Well.. thanks Miss Ai Reen for supporting me ^-^
(n not scolding me cos i did badly for my assesment..)

I appreciate that A LOT.

Ok..

Then, i go for my CME...

N play in front of the students...
(I play like shit also~ >.<) After my performance....

Ms. Genevience: "Hui Kee.... (walking towards me...)"

Bla bla bla...
(Not important... just some comments and stuff)

Ms. Genevience: "Hey u know something??"

Me: "huh?"

Ms. Genevience: "U... u ar... (start laughing..)"

Me: "Har...?? (start feel a bit nervous)"

Ms. Genevience: "Hui.. Kee u know.... (laughing hilariously)"

Me: "What?"

Ms. Genevience: "Hahaha... (still laughing and using the book to cover her mouth..)"

Me: "What WHat WHAT??!!"

Ms. Genevience: "U know.. the way u play piano damn funny!!! (laughing uncontrollably... got such word?)"

Me: "........................ -_-!! "

Then everyone start laughing especially Su Mei, sommore shouting YES YES YES!! -_-"

Me: "............................................................................... -__________-!! "

Ms. Genevience: "Ya! i was laughing all the way when u are playing... N Terrence was staring at me wondering what happen... (wahhahahha)"

Me: "(Speechless..)Teacher... dun laugh at me la... -__-" I since young play lidat... everyone also laugh at me.... what can i do?!"

Ms. Genevience: "No.. ur eyes was like.... (showing me how i look like) popping out and u look so so so stress!! relax la!!! (still laughing...)"

Me: "Aiyo.................. "(speechless)

Everyone still laughing...
(Actually everything happens quite fast... not as long as i written here.. hehehe)

Me: "Teacher, i think i wear mask go on stage la... -_-!! "

Wa.... i really look so ugly meh?! till teacher laugh till tears wanna come out d....

I can feel my face burning... *blushing*

But,

Honestly i wanna thank her4 being so patient to me although i play like shit in every class... >.<"
She's the nicest teacher i've ever met... haha... funniest thou~

N terrence too, for willing to sing for me~ hehehhe...

Woah~

What a great day i had...

I guess it's true that only sadness can bring u happiness....
Uh... correct?

I never felt so embarassed in my whole life...

I had a horrible, dreadful day...

My mind can't think and the horrible scene just keep on playing and playing in my mind which is really driving me crazy. I feel like some idiot who went for Malaysian Idol's audition and was showed to the whole world on TV...

Although i really wanted someone to listen to me...

But i think words after failures are just excuses which make u look more like an idiot....

Well, thanks Sean for laughing there when i screw everything up..

And thanks Jenny for asking me why am i so nervous....
(i really do appreciate that, cos u're the only person who talks to me before i left the room..)

And sorry for all the footprints i stomp on those walls outside practice room...

I feel so ashamed to face everyone...

Especially my voice teacher...

Seriously, my confidence dropped to 0 today...

I played piano sucks, I sing like shit.....

I dunno what i am good at honestly~

I believe something which sounds :"Everyone was sent to Earth for a mission."

Well,

Why am i here?! I am good at nothing!

damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it damn it !!


Dun worry, I won't give up..

I will neva give up.

Please stop the eyebrowns from cursing!!

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Back in 1962...

Well... i was back to my childhood...
--- again, yesterday...

Sitting on bed watching 3 big guys playing Street Fighter and Capcom versus dunno whatever name the stuff called on PS2...

The only thing i did was...


-_________- """


And laugh till my pants dropped!! *opppsss... blush*

When the screen there showing Chun Li* fighting with Ken*..

I saw A Teck and A Kit fighting for controller in front of me...

And i was like : "Huh?!?!!"


One is 22 years old, another lagi jialat, 23 years old...


Fighting over the controller what the heck is going on this world!?!

I really cant stop laughing..







Then *pengsan*...

(All my pic damn ugly.. wahahhaha...)


Well,

Unfortunately, I lost 4 rounds of car racing to A Kit... (I'll get u next time wait till then!! >.<)

But...

A Juan was beaten flat by me in the dancing game!
wahahhahha... yeah yeah yeah... >.<


Haha... but seriously it's been a while since i had this kinda feeling...

A special feeling which i dunno exactly how to describe...

But honestly i feel really happy and gosh... really how to describe my feeling when i saw them play games like little kids... especially A Teck lo~

p/s: I shld take photos and post it here... Aiks~ forget.. -_-"

But I must say that I am pleased and glad to know all of my band members...



This is the only and the favourtie picture we took ^-^
Each and everyone of them adds another colour and flavour to my life...

I meant it.

Thanks guys ^-^

p/s: * is the fake name used to protect the victim of tis story.. :p
N sorry bout that day cos i think i sing really bad... :(

Stress is really breaking my soul apart..

I can't remembered when's the last time i had dinner alone..


Yup, i ate alone tonight..



Qi Yu and d gang went to Mc D w/out me..

But luckily she still remembered to pack one for me... :]

Anywayz,

Tis feeling is like.. last year when i was studying in Taylor's...


So alone.


Everynight i'll mostly be alone that time... unless my bf came to find me...

Now,

I glance around me and i see...
Books and papers everywhere, surrounded by heavy dust and the leftover of my McD is still on the table...


Man, what a life i am havin now~


Listening to Avril's song for the band practice tomolo....
(How come the more i listen the more lonely i feel? *sigh..*)

I cant remember since when i hate eating dinner alone, or watch movie alone...

I just hate this feeling...

I need ppl around me... seriously 24/7 i need ppl around me...

Gosh~ aural homework really tearing me apart...

N Su Mei din reply my msg...
Neither do Jier Lin or Jay...

N pls dun let the lesbian call me again~ *Amen...*

Damn..

My soul is so fucking wrenched.....

p/s: Please remember me next time k? I hate to be left out... I feel so not important... always

Runaway Bride

Fellows..

I was quite pissed to found out that i missed so so many good performances...

But today, i witnessed 2 excellent performances..

One is from my piano teacher's good fren,

Ng Chong Lim.

And another is a drama presented by Footstool Players...



The drama is called Runaway Bride

The drama was awesome!! Fantastic!! Amazing!! Extravagen!! astonishing!! remarkable!! excellent!! superb!! great!! fabulous!! marvelous!! incredible!! unbelievable!! simply lovely~!!

Ok, enough of those praises...

Well.. it's very good cos the whole drama only have 4 actors.. and they are really really remarkable! they can change their expression within 0.0234 second!!

Woah~

Actually since young i love acting...

Oh ya, talk bout acting~~

I am proud to annouce that...

The movie is done!!!

and was sent to Astro this afternoon!!!

Oh yeah oh yeah oh yeah yeah yeah...

2 tumbs up, 3 cheers and hugz for everyone (especially Teck n Juan) who helped up in this movie~

WoooOOoooOoo....

I'll post up the clip soon....
I hope~

Hee...

Great day! and at first i tot i will regret not going bek Muar...

And very pissed at myself cos i actually forget to call my cousin brother to come and watch this drama!! Iskh~ but anywayz...

haiz..

I had the most pimples on my whole body in my entire life!!
5 huge pimples!!! 3 on face 1 on the back and another one on my lower back..

My fren told me it's cos of stress...

I guess so... Damn stress lately..
So much work and so little time..

Luckily i dun have BF now...

If not worst.. heheh..

Wa! the pimples is like, 2 cm width?! aaa.....

PAIN~!!

I was a baby sitter the other day..

Long time din post something with pic~

Lai lai...

I always say human are unpredictable~

See for yourself~


What? neva see lollipop before?

Ok, show u a bigger wan..


Ooi!! these lollipops cost RM 14.70~!! A Teck is the culprit~ but he treat me eat so i dun mind.. haha.. although it's seriously look quite scary.. (i eat till my toungue numb -_-!!)


They start eating d my plastic still haven open yet~hee...

Tell u guys a fact which proves that Science is amazing!

I told the two "big boys" ter eating lollipop will makes u high~

At first they dun believe..

But after sucking the lollipop for one hour...


See??








A Teck was so high~ Taking picture solo sommore..

Followed by...












A Juan also ki siao..

As for me...

I laugh till my tears drop..!! wahahahah damn funny! sohai Teck dunno laugh apa sial~

Oooppppsss... sorry, forget to tell the main point of this story~

Actually... we are suppose to have a candy party..
So A Teck beriya-iya go 100 Yen buy lollipop~
Then both of them ki siao d~

Then only we go for dinner....

Eat Shark Fin steamboat (Keng le~ neva heard before also right? wahha)


Even reach that place d still cannot let go of the lollipop~

Song! long time neva eat steamboat d!! nice nice... but damn spicy la...


And i ''lao sai'' whole day next morning.. nearly die~ -_-*


Yeah! so happy..


But, after eating the same food for dunno how many rounds...

A Teck sian d...


They also sian....


Ya...me and Juan also sian...

Then suddenly remembered bout the lollipop~!

It's so sticky and disgusting cos it's in the sisa-sisa makanan...



But he dun care!

Eat only...

And act cute sommore!! walao~ 22 years old liao...


A Juan see him lidat also ki siao~ hee.. i sesat beside..

Finally finish dinner...

Tot everything's over?

Hehee..

Think again~




Imagine we taking these pic in car!!
I think we wasted more than half an hour inside car taking these pic...
Until memory full d also dunno~ still song song continue taking the pictures... -_-"

Well, just now only both of them high~

Now i joined in!!
(Notice that i start to eat the lollipop d~) I holding the remote~




Notice A Teck's face.... -_-"


Notice Juan's face...!!



Ki Siao all the way!!


Me and Juan act cute...


Then me and Teck..

Wa!! both 22 year old guy act cute...

I must act cute also! hehehe~

Haha... most of the pic is me and Teck..
Cos Juan busy driving and we busy ki siaoing...

He said he looks like sea lion.... a bit lo~ aahha...
Sea lion eating lollipop~!



AaAAAAaaAAaAaaa!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Enough of these nonsense...


(Panting...) Well...

As i was saying...

Human are really unpredictable...

A simple lollipop can make us do so many stupid thing...

Even 22 year old guy also back to childhood~ hehhee

But honestly,
I had a great time that day~

And i am glad to hear Teck said that that's the happiest day he ever had...

Well.. maybe he neva eat lollipop before~ poor kid... hehhee ^-^

LC... envy not?
Ask u come dun wan.. say got cats and dogs chasing after u~
Hahaha~ regret le! u missed all the fun!