Happy-little-Hui-Kee.. Or not?

Here to read my depressing post again?

U've made a mistake pals...
Well, it's true that i am here as i always do..

But just wanna say i miss baboon out of a sudden.. (surprise myself too!!)

It seems that i've no matured (enough) frens to share my feelings...
Not to say that i am matured .. i am not, obviously.. that's y i need an ''adult'' to talk to..

I cried alone in practice room today...
I never did this..

Guess i am just super low-spirit lately...
Been having sleepless nights, heavy eye bags and extremely pale lips..

Well.. who cares anywayz...
I mean, WHO will care bout me?! (except my family and those who're close in school with me)

Seriously, i owe my dearest an apology...
For being.. ME again...
I'm depress!!

YES!!
I'VE ANNOUCED IT!
I'M VERY DEPRESS NOW...

OK.. i wanna apologies for being ''unreasonable'', ''kiddy'', ''annoying'' etc. etc.
and not understanding for a working ppl like you...
and i am still so glad to have such a nice bf like u :)

Also, i learn something from u my dear..

We've to face the fact, face the reality when we're living in this world..

Fine, i FINALLY talk myself out..

I've accept the fact that u are a Gemini..
I've accept that you cannot pampered me like other guys did to me..
I've accept that you cannot accept the logic of how girls find a simple 5-cent text sms important to them
I've accept that you're older than me and you are already tried your best to be the best guy in my life
I've accept that everyday call and contact is not necessary
I've accept everything...

Old ppl says :"Women never listen"
But i guess there're guys out there who never listen too!
Until they realize they lost something important in their life...

But honestly...

From the bottom of my heart...

Thank you for loving me..

I'm not being a very good gf i guess...

And after this post..
I promise i will make myself feel better!

You do whatever you want for me...

I will just be a happy-little-hui-kee!

p/s: Advise for gurls... Do not angry and be sad alone and hoping your guy will notice and come and sweet talk you... Because guys are single-cell animal... they wont understand unless you say it out WORD-BY-WORD...

New Year, Old me...

Just now i saw my hzmate throwing tantrum to her bf ... again... and the bf, as usual, tried to make her happy although she's being unreasonable...which reminds me that she's actually a year older than me... and i DID forget that...

It sort of reflects myself in her... I was always behaving that way... and i kinda... miss that feeling.. at least i feel that i am important... and someone does needs me to be there...

I know things will get more complicated as you grow up.. and the basic thing is not to tangled the neuro system which indirectly will affect the system that controls the hormone produced.. which indirectly affects the mood and unfortunately... the extra will always be the depression hormone.. (or izzit?)

Well, frens aroudn me keep asking me whether i am happy? and some actually ask me to be happy... Gosh~ i am confuseD! I think i am happy but all the while there'll be this little voice whispering in my eyes telling me all those painful things that hurt me deep in my heart...

Life's is not meant to be that way...

My happiness are filled with doubts...

Until i MET YOU.....


I hope u are reading this my dear...
Cos we really need to talk....

I've put all my affort in building up this relationship....
Have you?