Yup! This is the monster i decribe which scares me to death (not the person!! look at the cat! cat!) By the way, the lady holding Manja is my aunt. 

Pls!! I need rest...

Dammit... I seriously look like panda these few days.. Air-cond broke down, Aunt keep on kicking me in the middle of the night... But! this is not the worst part...

Last night, i think a few hours after i fell asleep... I felt something touching my toes (0_0!!!!!)
At first, I took no action cos i think i must be dreaming so i ignore it...

But, after a few seconds (or min i dunno...) the feeling is still there! Then i slowly open my eyes and lifted my head, I saw a shadow with a pair of eyes glowing towards my direction! Seriously i tell u, I was so freaked out i nearly pee on the bed! With my "tindakan refleck" ha, of course i kicked the object hard until it fell down to ground.. Guess what? It's my aunt's stupid cat Manja...

The animal firstly gave a low growl then keep on meowing for no reason (mayb protesting for my action) which woke my aunt up and she was like "Did u just kicked my daughter? Aiyo.. how can u do that? She's probably had a nightmare and neep company. Let her sleep in the room also"

-_-!! (Amz and baboon,still remember the msn icon blue face icon with sweat coming down and jaw senget to one side we used to use?yup, that's how i look like)I was so stunned that i nearly scream the full sentence instead of the short form WTF?!!! I am the one who suppose to have nightmare k? Just imagine something fury touched u in the middle on the night and stared at u when the surrounding in dark? Remember cat's eyes is so damn eerie... yicks!

Then everyday i go to work I cant feel my feet my brain still half asleep and my whole body's aching like mad... I wanna go home :'/ I want my mummy !!

Why Guys are so.... "lidat" wan ?

I don't understand why....

• Guys can't understand girls even after DECADES of practice ? Even till now this problem is still exist! Common.. u have been practiced for AGES!
  

• Girls are always the victim in love? Why can't guys give more attention to girls rather than complaining them for being unreasonable and such??
  

• Guys just can't drop by to see thier love for just a few minutes even when they miss each other? And it's just a stone throw away only? (erm...maybe is two stones throw away) "So troublesome.." is the answer...

• Girls normally put more love in their love? (huh?) Why must guys pretend not to care as much as the girl care bout him even though he loved her so much? To make himself feels better? Or...Is this some kinda egoness??

• Roses have thorns and guy still send roses to their GF?

• Guys will never understand how important it is to reply thier GF's msg??

• Guys doesn't know that they shouldn't compare their love ones with other girls or even saying that they ARE the same important with his friends? (50:50)

• Guys rather spend hours in Cyber Cafe killing some stupid monsters* while letting their love ones staring at the phone whole night hopping it'll make some noise?

• Am i smashing my keyboard in the middle of the night while he is having fun outside with his "kaki"?

• ARRRGGHHHH ~~~~ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >.<"

Cut cut cut cut! I WAS.... so darn angry that my blood was boiling, chest was burning and smoke came out from my ears until i saw a sweet msg delivered to my hp....

AaaAaaaa..... the night is so peaceful and quiet... i feel like i am bathing in a pool of rose petals... Angles are hugging me.... (-_-!!) and i feel so light that i can blow away by wind anytime... ^-^

My anger just swept away instantly! Just because of a short message.... Ok,

Now i don't understand girls !! (WTF?!!)

p/s : No offends for all my guy friends! Wrote this when i'm bloody hungry.... (Remember? hungry man is an angry man! >,<) * In case for those who dunno.. killing monsters means playing Warcraft.

(I know this whole thing is crap.. I'm just too bored (-_-zzz) ! But I'm telling the truth as well... or maybe i think i am just kinda worked up cos i can't attend Ban Hiang's concert tonight :[ )

I need an antidote

"Na na na na na na na na... I just can't get u out of my head..bla bla bla (i dun actually know the lyrics)" Seriously, after listen to this song.. it'll haunt U like.. forever?

Well.. lately only i realize that missing someone is more suffering than having chicken "poks" (this is how my lil sis spell them) all over your body which you are not allow to scratch them.. Missing people is like... u cant even feel the itchyness but your whole body is on fire...

I am cursed one and a half year ago... It was terrible... I though i will get over it soon at that time and, JUST END EVERYTHING.. But who knows? the virus just get deeper and deeper... First, it eats up my blood cells, then devaure my nerves and spine. Finally owns my brain cells and even sucks up my soul... (am i making sense?)

And now the disease took over me and i'm getting older too i guess.. But strangely i don't feel like getting well soon... or even thinking of getting well.. i want to be numb like this forever...

On the other hand, I need an antidote... I can't take this anymore...

Why people have to fall in love? Fall in love = Fall into a trap... Just like the theme song for Lilo and Stich "Only fools rush in...."

Everyone is a fool anyway...

You must be very tired running in my mind 24/7 ....

P/s: One day maybe i'll regret doing this kinda stuff.. but the thing just keep running in my mind "Post it! post it!" I'm suppose to post up my feelings, right?

To be.... or not to be?

Today is the day which my heart beats furiously and my palms are sweaty.. cos it's piano-lesson-day... I still cant get over it u see.. I also cant understand y I'll get so nervous before going piano lesson, honestly i feel more anxious than going to a real exam!!even after so many lessons... maybe I'm in love with Ban Hiang or somthing.. (I shivered after i type the L word.. yicks!! >,<)

Anywayz, I spent quite a lot of time thinking bout what should i do...(especially the time when i was washing the dishes.. I hate washing dishes!!!) ok, one day i happened to glanced back my collection of albums in my drawer and mi found out bout 75% of myCDs and DVDs are either in Pop, R&B, Jazz n Blues, Jinggles, Rock or even heavy metal (real heavy ones..) and the rest is classical etc. And so my first reaction is,

Shit.

And my aunt's words came to my mind "What u gonna be you gonna be." (does it make sense?)

Anyway, I started to realize my problem.. do i really like classical music or just be a mummy's nice girl? cos when i suggest my mum that i take contemp. music she was like "No Way! No way u are going for contemp. music" Ok, so that's it...

I am Confused.

I really need help.. But something really strange happen, whenever i started to lay my fingers on the keyboard to play classical music, I can feel my blood rushing thru my brains and to my fingers, it's really cool... (I knew this must have something to do with Ban Hiang!!) and I enjoyed that feeling.. am i sick?

P/s: Another reason for me to choose contemp music is b'cos classical music is so bloody serious! there are a lot of rules in playing a pieces, or even just a note.. i must sit properly when i play the keyboard (def. no cross-legs), I have to strech my fingers and i think i nearly broke my baby finger last week, I have to use my forearm to play instead of my fingers (huh?), and this and that... it's not suitable for a blur queen like me! darn it...

I'm a noob

ok.. this is actually my second account... i kinda forgets the first account's password.. or even the user name...


well, still... i have to thanks Hui Wen for introduce this thingy to me and i think i nearly made her faint the other day.. i'm really new to this kinda stuff and she was the one who "suppose" to teach me how to use it and she was like "No! not the new blog! Click on the post! post!" ok... so, thanks a lot pal...


And i thought of "creating" my own blog is actually... well, after i saw Mun Kit's website i was like... OMG~~ this is so damn cool! (seriously folks..) and i sat there staring at my computer screen with my jaw drop and my eyes popped out for a few seconds once i saw his website... seriously, it's really cool... i remembered he told me once bout his website but i dun bother to have a look (not interested that time..) hehe... Mun kit, if u happen to read this... must pay me for advertising your website.. haha..