-_- zZz

I think the most important thing between friends is

SINCERITY.


I hate having frens who are not being sincere to the other party. I really hate that.
I treat those around me, especially those very close to my side, very truely, sincerely n with all my heart.

And yes, i wish to have it in return.

Thank you.

Dun take me for granted just because i do silly things n crack stupid jokes.
I'm not blind.

Woah !! O_O

Here's a post i copied from a friend of mine...
(Hope he wont mind)

Personally i find this very meaningful...
(N i neva know that he is actually REALLY that sentimental... hahaha)

What is love? i'd been thinking about this for sometime.. but i never get the answer. love might not be the most important thing in life but.. for me it is.. ^^.. maybe im a bit sentimental type.. haha.. i hate those love movies with sad ending.. but love watching them.. coz i guess dat the reality... no love story with happy-ever-after ending.. have u ever wonder the person next to u know is really the person u are in love with? ppl tends to adapt or i should say compromise just to get rid of their loneliness.. humen are selfish.. dat's why love is no longer important anymore i guess..... dat's one quote from the movie 'forget about me, the person dat love u the most... is urself' dat's sooo true... sigh...

What?
hehe... i am dangerous... i know, i will go around hunting for stuff to post in my blog...
So, beware of what u post...

It might be appearing here u see... hehhe :p

:/

Hee... spent one n a half hours to repair my blog....

Damn i'm wasting my life here....

These few days been in really... and i mean REALLY down mood........

Aparently, i'm having upset stomach, restless nights, depressed mood n decrease in food intake....

If these are some symptoms of any kind of diseases....

Please be kind enough to inform me~

Sigh.........

Dunno what's wrong with me lately seriously....

Cant seem to have any interest in doing anything n feeling lonely all the time....

Sigh sigh sigh sigh..........

Getting old i guesss......

Or am i tired of TRYING to be perfect all the time?

Someone told me that my aura (dun exactly know how to spell) changed...

Well, it depends on what kind of people u mix with........

I'm just tired......

I miss my family....... I miss them so damn much lately.........
Thirst for their love.........

T.T

..............................I wanna go home.................................

Fuck!!!

Ok.. wondering what's wrong with my blog or shall u say my brain that i actually put a sunflower as my layout?

Guess what? this is a disaster.....

I lost everything in my blog...

I mean... i lost my hugs n my chatter box n my counter...

Even my spongebob's cartoon!! shit damn it~

I dunno what is wrong with my blog that hald of the content in the template gone~

Deleted......

Man...

I am so depresseed. -_-

Oh Well....

Alright...

I gonna fail my Aural II mid term...

I sort of improvise n change the rhythm to my own... In the test..

While i sigh my head off, i turned to look at Su Mei when the paper is being passed up...
I was shock to see her stunned expression...

Even the mighty Su Mei also agree that the exam was way too hard...

N i kinda relieved to see everyone complaining bout how they cant get the rhythm and the melody n stuff...

But i know they sure get high marks... i just wanna hear complaints to let myself feel better... At least i am not the only one who feel the tense... :p

Quite a lot of things happened in this week...

1st, I am officially declared to be a PMS disease holder
2nd, I freaked out n throw everything i had in my stomach
3rd, Had the most embarassing weekend
4th, Emotionally unstable

Well,

The main problem is the Mid Term exam...

It's been a while i had the feeling of exam trauma... I think i kinda pushed myself too hard...
I dun wana let my mum down...

But at least i had more than 2 enjoyable Piano lesson with Loo ^-^ At least i kinda get what he expected from me.... Keep it up ... yea~

On the other hand ...

Lots of people wondering bout my Valentine's day...

Hmmm... Yea, LC was right~

I am a girl destined not to have the 1st Valentine in every new relationship..
Haha..

But i'm okay with it...

Serious~

I wont let myself be so down like the way i felt 2 years ago...
It's a reatard to feel down over this matter....

If u're with the right person...
Everyday will be Valentine's day :)

p/s: I'm not giving myself consule..... -_-"

*Highlight: I bought a Quicksilver shirt for him.. >_~*
As long as i can remember, this is the first time i spend big amount of money so happily ^-^

I dun care bout pressies in return... I am happy to see how glad he is when he got his present :]
yup...

*Reminder: LC, u still owes me something...........

I'm a fortunate girl ^-^

I miss my family.....


Especially my mum.......



LOVE her so much!!!



Muackss! :p

Hmmm...

Well, finally finish my work n scrolled some of my fren's blog...

Baboon's was the first stop....

Actually i kinda admire the way she write her blog... feels very... light~ damn, i dun quite know how to describe.... But fuck n bitch are all over the place -_-"

Then, i read Pek Mei's blog... Only i realize her bf's not in Malaysia now~
I dunno what to say....
But...


Gurl... be strong~



N i am glad that my darling is sleeping peacefully somewhere in Malaysia.....
Uh... i dun think it's peaceful at all... His snoring is worst than those Muslim's shouting when they sembahyang.... -_-"


Heee... cheers*


Toilet's calling me~ gtg!

Let me survive in this cruel world....

Man.. i cant believe tat i just erase all the things i wrote just now~

I hate Aural II's homework... it's really giving me a hard time... T.T


Blog is a very noble thing which i can post whatever i like here..........
Indirectly this will make me feel much much better after i wrote everthing here......
N i dun care whether anyone reads it............
I just wanna feel better.........
N i notice actually there're lots of ''silence'' readers here....

Hmm....


Well, gonna write like the way i wrote 9 months ago....


Ok, here goes.......


Apparently, i miss my darling so so very much.........................................................
As long as i can remember.....

I never miss him so much like the way i miss him tonight.............


i really really need hugs from him...................................
Lots of them...........


but he's sleeping now....................... i guess...........


Just saw his blog..... very old post writting bout his ex-gf............ it kinda hurts when i read that...... izzit because i can feel how my ex feel?? Or i can feel how my dearest feel when he wrote that blog...??


Man... what have i done......??

But too bad i really cant continue to be my ex's partner..............
Although sometimes i do miss the way he brushes my hair.......
But... fate brought me to another person....


People says Taurus is the best horoscope to be considered as hunsband while Gemini just seem to have too much love to spread... for other people....


Well, what do u know?
i left a Taurus n went for a Gemini...................
As i was saying, humans are unpredictable~

But honestly i do love my BF.......... current BF......... very much .......(although there're still doubt btw us... but i do love him a lot....seriously....) I know it's a short time we be together.... But i dun think love shld be measured using period... (time, for goodness sake -_-")
*But i really hate to know that he's drinking or smoking... i HATE IT*

I know it's a retard for saying this but i really feel that i am the most lucky girl in the world to have him as my BF...
Although he never voice out his feelings to me...... N i think for some time i do mind him doing (what for hiding up all the feelings? there's someone there to care for u...) that but i believe tat he will tell me whatever i need to know when he feel like telling me... no point pushing him doing something he dun willing to...


Sincerely i hope that he's not the devil that i feared of..........
i dun wanna be hurt by the one i love....... trust me, i know how it feels.............

But anywayz, i wont treat him like the way i treat my ex..... Guys tend to take things for granted... when girls treat them good they'll thought that they'll have her forever.... but they never know there's a limit of treating someone u love real nice... until u lose her...

But doesn't mean that i will treat him bad of course....................
Giving him more love than my last relationship for sure n...
Love in a smarter way..........


Meanwhile.....

my mum just called me n my tears drop down.............. damn............. i dun wanna feel tis way............. i dun wanna see myself crying... i haven been crying for so long please dun let me remember the way i look when i cry.......................
I miss her a lot too......... I've done too much damage on her.............

everytime when things happened to me i asked myself to be strong....STOP depending on ppl around me... dun depend on the person who i love n the person who love me because this will make them feel uncomfortable n yet my problem is not solve.... N i scared i will lose the person who are really important to me..........

But i fail to be the strong gal i looked into my eyes..............

N i end up breaking down my own nerves....


God please show me the path i need to walk.............................



I cant continue to smile n shine for ppl around me if i still cant passed my own test............







I am sorry for everything i've done......................... T.T
I really tried my best....................





*poof! i feel better now already ^-^ Study music is not as fun as everyone else thinks........ seriously*