To conclude (in a nutshell) :p

Well, the short semester ended.. two days ago...

Relieved?? I'm not sure.. :/

Lots of things happened during the past 2 months. Been having lots of ups and downs, mood swings, mixed feelings, hi bye lots of frens, had lots of rush hours..

I wonder how much longer can i take all these craps... (of course i expect something worst in future thou..)

Had my concerto jury two days ago..

It was a total disappointment. Never expect i will play that bad. Yeah, accidents. Still, i considered it to be the worst playing throughout the whole semester. (I think i played even better during recital and classes).

Sigh... I cried. Been tahan-ing my tears on stage and also the time when i walked out of the hall. Then, i burst out~

I was so helpless during that time. I just feel like talking to someone but no one is there. (Although Su Mei is there beside me... but...)

Mr. Loo saw me crying even though i tried to avoid him..

But he said something to me after the performance and i really thank him for those words he said.. Although the words he said is quite "limited" :p . But i believe words are powerful~ cos it can destroy u or make u a better person. So i was really touched when i know that he actually cares. (I hope he does ^-^ if not i'll be perasan-ing)

Also, i really thank Dr. Jeff for being there. He's so far, the most caring and understanding lecturer i've ever met. He sent me sms saying i've done a great job, it was a nice performance. I doubt it~ *_*

Later that day, i went out lunch with Mr. Loo and Su Mei and others. I was kinda nervous and malu at the same time.. Mixed feelings again.. But i went for lunch in the end also..

Then i realized that actually Loo is a very funny guy~! he's friendly and i wonder why i was sooo fucking afraid of him for the past 2 years -_-"

Most importantly, he is not as ''geeky'' as i though :p Found his facebook and friendster!! haha~ He's actually a very fun person to hang out with.. Cant believe i said this but i hope i can hang out with him more often in future ^-^

Then, my day ends with the Chamber Music Concert. Oh, i was selected to play for the concert this semester.. again! was so excited when i found out that.. It took me by surprised seriously~ i never thought we played that well... But the concert went on very well ^-^ although lots of unhappy and messy things happened in between and i was actually very panic before i went on stage. But luckily the performance went on well. I feel that it was actually better than the assessment day itself. Although my partner made a few mistakes.. but the whole thing was kinda good :p will post up the video very soon people!

Sigh... had lots of mixed feelings, and not to mention MORE nightmares lately.. It's really tearing me apart..

Well, frens come and frens go.. But i never though my fren will leave me in this way..

I always say that love is a deadly trap. If not people wont use the word "fall" in love in the first place. Although i always said that in the past, I don't really understand how it feels... or more precisely, what it meant.

But now i sorta get what it means.

My fren chose to leave me although it was really painful. And i believe that it hurts him more than it hurts me. But i think that he made a right choice. In fact, i think he.. no, we should take the action 2 months earlier.

My decision indirectly hurt a guy's soul. But i feel that, sometimes the act of cruelty is the show of kindness. Therefore, when i've choose the path. I'll stick to it. Although I'm not sure if i will regret in the end. But, i must take the responsibility for what i've chosen, and what i've promise. And it hurts me as well. Seriously it does.

But I believe that I'm doing this for the person I love and the person who loved me.

I thank God that I met him. He's the sweetest guy i've ever met. But fate decides that we shall be frens. At least that is what i though.

Ya, he'll always be my best fren.

And I shall return to the Hui Kee I want to be and wave old Hui Kee good-bye.

Horny Cat!

My bf went to a pet shop in Carefour Kepong, and he spotted this..

*Notice the white cat with brown tail* -_-"



White cat: Hi gorgeous.. Meow~
Brown cat: Hi, I think I like you..
White cat: Come come I give u kiss kiss..
Brown cat: huh? Ok, hugs..
                    u can go now..
White cat: oh come on~~ I want more.. *rub rub rub*
Brown cat: *hug* ok, I hug liaoz… now go away~
White cat: lai lar lai lar.. dun paiseh... mucks mucks
Brown cat: meow~ -_-"
White cat: come come brownie.. meow meow *drool*
Brown cat: go away la bitch *push head* Meow~
White cat: come brownine ~_~ gimme gimme what i want... *drool*
Brown cat: Fuck you la! go away! ARRGHH~~
                    *push head hard*

Yerr... damn horny la that cat!! >.

My Concerto!

Finally i got the video of my concerto performance! But the picture is too blur but luckily the sound is ok... and one of my fren who took the video right in front of me, forget to save the clip -_-" iskh~~

Well, i used about one month's time to prepare this concerto because this is a short semester. At first i was really worried about my concerto and i will go to my school's hall to practice at 7 a.m. at least twice a week, because of the stupid piano. (The recital hall piano wasn't really friendly >.<") But i really thank my lecturer to have such patience and faith in me. I never thought i can do it... Hope u will enjoy my playing! ^-^ * I screwed up my cadenza -_-"

Mozart Piano Concerto in A Major, K. 488 - 1st Movement





Accompanist: Mr. Loo Bang Hean (my lover :p)

Pls let me feel better....

I dunno what is wrong with me lately...

I feel restless, I feel dizzy, I feel high, I feel anxious, and I feel tired altogether...

Sigh... and most importantly, I am very emotional... After so long...

There're so many things that i want to tell but right now all the words left me and i cant even describe how i feel... So pathetic...

I need hug... long, tight hug....

To prevent me from falling apart...

And i miss you so much.................. T.T

Nowadays, we 'heng' Hip Hop liaoz!

I am going to take part in T-shirt design competition... organized by Echo Park (in my school -_-")

The prizes are not very attractive thou.. but still, better than nothing la... kekekeke

And most importantly, i think Echo Park just wanted to find some nice design out there without having to spend much money on a professional designer... iskh iskh... evil evil plan!

*ehem*

Here's the design!!

TADA~~~

Kindly rate this design or leave some comments pls ! ^-^

This is so true!

Cancer and Gemini:

This is a very popular pairing. These two meet and feel destiny from their very first conversation. An intense physical attraction could lead to a sexual relationship or perhaps a marriage.

The key to making this work is both must to be willing to forgive and forget. One key issue here is Gemini’s need for space and variety at all times. Gemini is an air sign and also a mutable sign who can multitask, whereas Cancer focuses on one person, place or situation at a time. Cancer may mistake Gemini’s need for outside stimulation as a sign of sexual rejection and Gemini will get irritated by Cancer’s emotional showdowns and become agitated quickly. Gemini may flee and will pursue outside interests while Cancer will withdraw and become moody.

On the flipside, Gemini can banish Cancer blues while Cancer provides warmth and security to Gemini. Many of the misunderstandings between you arise because GEMINI is more emotionally detached and rational, while CANCER is more subjective, emotionally involved, and unable to be as articulate and "reasonable" as GEMINI is. Paradoxically, you are attracted to one another for the same reason! GEMINI's mental agility and wit appeals to CANCER, CANCER's sensitivity and depth of feeling is attractive to GEMINI, and you both have much to learn from one another.


*That explains everything! :p

Heart? Brain?

It's been a while i write something like this... the feeling came back to me again... words just keep flowing in my head and it's so unbearable and i must write it down to ease the uneasiness...

But i never write in such early time in a day..

Well, what is wrong with me you ask?
Hmm... let's just say that the other part of my body doesn't want to listen to me anymore..

Confused??

Let's put it this way:
Normally i don't really believe (although some part of me do, if not i wont write like this) that human can think in two ways, or communicate within themselve in two ways..

One is by using the brain, the other is using the heart.

But i do now.

Yes, my heart and my brain has conflict ideas now...

I'm not lost. Although everytime i appear to be, or even say i am lost. I know what i am thinking and what i should do.

The reason why i say i am lost is just an excuse not to think or consider what the other part of me is trying to say. Because my brain ask me to act rationally and do not do something that will make me regret.

However... it gets harder to bear.. my hands are holding a precious gem that everyone else envy and i am proud of, and i know i will never ever let go...

But somehow my eyes start to glance other side of the world.

Sigh...

I hate myself when i do things like that. I feel so vulnerable, so.... like the old me.

That's why this time i rather hurt myself than hurt other people...
Because by feeling that way i will able to wake myself up, and focus more on things that is more important.

Because i will always follow what my brain says........... for now.