I'm back !!!

Sry ppl...it's been a while....

Yup, started a new life in a new school in a new environment...
At first, everything seems to be quite tempting... quite juicy feeling... (huh?)

But now, feel a bit numb.... dunno why also actually....

Seriously, totally lost my interest on piano the other day.... ok, let''s go back to that particular day again, shall we??

Well, it's all very simple..
it's Terrible Tuesday once again..

Yup, sweaty palms and furiosly heartbeat which me nearly fainted in Aural class...

Honestly, that day was so fucking terrible!!!

Guess what?! The same Minstrels by Debussy i played for such a long time, Loo still praise me (to be more specific, it's the 3rd time he even praised me... ooOoo..) for playing quite well in the first 3 pages... who knows~! on the fourth page, i got mixed up with the rhythm which makes him so fucking pissed off!! (I swear i wasn't aware of the notes!!) and he made me wrote out the 1+ 2+ thingy which i haven been doing for like... 6 o 7 years?! and i was obviously stunned there dunno how to do.. and...

Everything was like in slow motion... i cant feel my feet... nor my fingers... every cell in my body is screaming for help... i cant do it i cant do it!!
But at last, i manage to do so la.. but all i remembered is, he keep on saying

"I cant believe i am doing this..."
"How can u get ur Grade8 w/out knowing these simple rhythm?!"
"This is as serious as a person who get into U and not knowing how to spell our ABC.."
and agian,
He's mumbling,"I cant believe i'm actually teaching this..."

And when i finally finished d Debussy song, i asked him whether i shld go on to another piece, guess what he said?

Whatever.

Ok... that word and that tone of voice will definately haunt me forever.... damn~

MAHAI!! I know i am weak in this and i dunno that i am wrong and why cant he jst show me the correct one and dun say those words which broke my cute lil crystal heart... (sob sob...)

Honestly, my tears flow immidiately when he stepped out the classroom...

I've never been scolded so badly by a piano teacher in my entire life man!!!!!!!!

Depressed, dejected, despondent, disheartened....

I feel like drinking dettol
(sry baboon, have to use ur phrase.. *whink*)

I dunno what else i can do man... practice and practice and practice?

Guess so....

Anywayz, I'll be dead in two weeks time... (when he's back from England...)

p/s: He's giving me pressure by saying "I wont be teaching u anymore if u continue behave like tis..."

damn... i hate my life