I know it's lame.....

Normally i will think these kinda mail is nonsense n i will basically just throw them into recycle bin...

But somehow today when i read this i have feelings..
(Damn~ i use feeling for everything.. even when i am buying something -_-" ehhe~ my frens shld know that..)

如果我還一直深愛著你...你是否還會待在我身邊?

<>如果我還一直在乎著你...你是否會再多看我一眼?
<>是否我已不存在了...你才感覺的到我的離開?

是否我已離開了....你才感覺的到我對你的好?

最真摯滴愛情不需要承諾

注定緣份滴情人不需要約定

只要真心真意滴對待眼前滴你‧‧‧‧

只願陪伴著你直到你不愛你‧‧‧‧‧

Oh ya.. i wonder how's Su Mei~ she sent me a msg and i think i told her that i wanna speak to her but i waited in front of my com so many days for her to online but cant see her also...

Hope ur relationship is doing fine gal... ^-^

Funny conversation...

Well, while i was typing my feelings with really wrenched body...

Someone from my school (UCSI fellows u all sure know who izzit..) made me laugh till i wanna cry...

Ok... curious bout our conversation?

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
Hey leng lui..

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yo

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so surprised to see u here...
haha

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
holiday din go any place play??

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I'm in muar now~ need to work..

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
Oh... muar is kampung?????????

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no

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
where is muar?

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Somewhere near malaka

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muar is not kampong

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
muar in melaka?

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no, in johor

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
johor? xinsan in johor also?

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ya, JB in johor also..

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But Johor not beside Thailand lo for goodness sake

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
Haha... i say this cos i wan to kao u...

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har?!

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
now i know u are not kindergarden standard...

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excuse me?! kindergarden?!

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
finish aledi!!!

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good for u then

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
copy and paste from the web site and let the girls to finish it,wahaha

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
did u watch wrestling??

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har?

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-_-"

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no..

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
eddie is died aledi.....

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not interested

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who's eddie?

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
1 of my favourite wrestler

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oh..

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
only 38 years old

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did u cry>?

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
i hug my pilow and cry and screm ur name

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
haha

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my name?

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guan ngo me shi?

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
bcos i saw eddie face i only can think ur face in my mind

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...............

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
how a humanface can same like some1

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what?!

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
unbelieveable

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eh.. are u drunk?

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
u can go to wwe.com and check

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
i didn blough u

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bluff

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
i text u only wahahah

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test

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
tat means test lo..heheheh

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oh...

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
tonight turn on ur astro 80 at 10pm

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
watch it,very touch

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touch?

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watch wrestling can cry?

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
u never know actually wrestling like a sad and romantic story..

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wahahahhahahahahahhahahah!!!!!

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this is the joke of the century!!

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waahah

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
i watch wwe around 10 year,i din miss any show

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
i collect the cd

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
almost expert liao

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cool....

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what?!

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u start watching when u a re 9"?

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
tat time i watch wcw,than standard6 i change watch wwf than watch ecw and than change to wwe

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uh.......

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
every mounth i will buy at least 1 wwe vcd

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
wwe also got many leng lui

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leng lui?

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
36 25 36

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big breast gal u mean?

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i tot is 38-42?

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
beautiful leg

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
they try b4 wrestling til the bra drop liao

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
really very big

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-_-"

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
hehe

LeGenD_KiLlEr says:
is time to watch wwe liao!!bye bye

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K.. see ya


p/s: everything u just read it's original and no changes had made....

I wish i can lost my memory..

Ya, like what my title says.. i would like to lost my memory...

What happened again u ask?

I would like to know what happen myself too..

My mum cried in front of me again..

fucking shit~ i dun even know what i have done..

I just know tat my relatives complaint bout me again... and it breaks her heart...

I know she's heartache when ppl try to say something to hurt me~ i know tat mum... and i feel

heartache too myself although i really dun think tat i've done anything wrong..

Well.. not entirely nothing wrong anywayz...

I wish to talk to someone who understands my situation cos i've no streght to repeat that long story of my family rules...

Ok, i must write out some of the things.. which are easier to understand.. since my chest is really burning and it's gonna explode soon..

Some of my closest relatives think that i am a very playful girl and my mum tolerates me too much, giving me too much feedom for me to do my stuff... and i just keep on wasting my parent's money..

Dammit~!!! ok, i admit that i kinda use a lot of money in my holiday cos i went shopping... but~ shit~.. i dunno wat to say...

This time it's cos i said i wanna join a dance class.. WITH my cousin sommore~

And they think i am not mature enough to actually thinking of joining dance class in this moment cos i am still a student n i'm wasting my mum's money..

I'm not mature cos i am wasting my mum's money for my own pleasure..

WTF?!

It's my holiday now k?~ dammit~~~!

U'll neva understand my feelings... i've being watched by my family since young.. well, thanks to my mum who tells everyone bout my story (especially when i have bf) but i din blame her cos i know she needs someone to talk to and my relatives are the only bunch of ppl she can think of...

But i dun understand y they say i am playful girl who fool around all the times?!!!??!

Fucking shit.

Why?! cos i am the first to have bf when no girl in my entire family has in such young age?! Well.. they're smart cos they neva tell...

I am stressed out.. every move i took every thing i did were being watched and ppl comment too much....

People whom i loved so much complaint bout me..

Do u know how that feels?!

It's more deadly than taking a knife and stab urself in the heart...

I love my aunts... seriously, from the depths of my heart... But what they did was hurting me...

Y cant they try to understand me...?

I believe that human just live once... I wanna do somehting i like when i'm still young..

Maybe i din consider much...

Maybe i am really naive and not mature...

But...

Just... stop hurting my mum...

I really dun wish to see her cry...

And i wanna be free....

I'm so stress....

~I really tried my best to be a perfect daughter~

Wondering how....

Been wanted to write this post since last week..

Man, how i'm glad to be back to hostel that Thrusday
(ok! i know my holiday just started -_-")

Well, I was thrilled and pleased to say that i am glad to see my hostel frens..

Which include my lpz(haha, i copy LC), darlin Pei Saan, Qi Yu, n course Carolyn!
and of course my skol mates! ^-^

Hmm.. i wanna thanks Pei Saan, Carolyn n lpz for ''protecting'' me the other night...
First time in my life i understand the feeling of having gfs' there for me~ :)
n i can tell u have lots of fun hanging up my ex's phone that day ya naughty Pei Saan.. :p
hee...

After having girls' talk with them, i realize i wasn't myself lately...

I accept love, but not entirely with open heart...

I'm scared...

Shit~ this is not wat i wanted to write bout...

Ok...

Uh.. did i mentioned i took up Latin dance course?

hehaha~! can imagine ur face when u see tis...

Ya, i took up 2 months Latin dance...

Y?

I tryin to be sexy... perhaps?

haha~

But i love Salsa more thou~

Anyone tried Latin dance before?

It's really fun... except u have to grab a partner in ur arm.. which is a guy~
And... i think i need to stock up my deodorant...

hahaa!! it's so disgusting to hold someone who sweats like a ... squid?

haha~

Anyhow...

Suddenly no mood...

Buai~!

My BIG project...

To be continue......

Muar is a high colesterol town..

--=*Welcome to Iz's Place*=--

Today's Menu


Appetizer

Mushroom Soup. Served with garlic bread and seasoned peanuts.

Main Course

Deep fried fish-and-chips. Pan fried fish fillet served with a touch of lemon

Homebaked chicken chop. Seasoned chicken meat grilled with finest black pepper, herbs and various spices.

Dessert

Iz* infamous Potato Salad. Smashed potatoes mixed with hard boiled eggs blended into sweetish mayonnaise

Garden salad. A mixture of fruits including pear, apple, grape, guava, banana, pineapple, durian... wahhaa... opss, except durian and pineapple... oh ya, and decorated with peanut and sesame powder.

Beverage

100% pure fruit juice. The goodness of apple blended with carrot... Heavenly perfect match!

Iz* cooperation.
All Right Reserved.
For reservation, pls ask me out for lunch, or dinner or yam cha... i dun mind :p
But i prefer movie thou

Waaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally~!!!

I did it i did it i did it!!

Wahaha!~!!!~!~!


Lai lai lai lai lai lai....






TADA!!



See see see?!!?!

I got ear ring!!
Thou not really big n pretty -_-"


wahahaha....

Damn proud...

My sis too~



She cry even before the piercing started... -_-"



What?!


Not funny...

~Sian~

Discovery Channel makes me hungry

I realize something...

Whenever i got home..

I'm depressed.

Gosh~ how shld i start this?

Well...

I am angry and pissed at mum just now cos whatever she said was so so sarcastic.. >.<

This is the reason i dun wanna intro my fren to her... especially... no... i mean any guy fren...

She'll start toking as if i am in a relationship and she's bugging bout that guy no matter what i said to her...

I hate that..

It'll wash away the excitement i have and i'll stop talking to her... :(

Even my ex also talked sarcasticly to me, asking me whether i've a bf now~

Man,

Gimme a break.

However, I feel heartache when i thought bek what had happened to me...

Y i kept letting my mum to worry bout me~

She's under stress already and somehow i cant do anyting to ease her pain but what i did was pailing up her troubles and made her worry most of the time...

My heartaches everytime i see the tiring expression on her face and yet i cant do anything to help her...

Sigh...

I am moody...

I wish to talk to someone but that fellow always let me down...

Everytime the people who i care bout cant be by my side when i need them the most...

Y aren't u sensible enough?!

U never conform me when i told u my problem....

U made me disappointed sometimes...

I'm sorry to say this...

The itch rose up towards me again... Sigh *

So many things wondering in my mind now~

This morning i was shocked to death...

My grandpa was chocked and nearly fainted... Whole family shouting and crying for a long time...

I stood in a corner not knowing what to do...

Heartattack..

I went to Halo Cafe this evening to apply job as a singer there...

Hope i get the job... still waiting for them to call...

Suddenly thought of A Teck...

Poor thing...

Somehow i really can feel the pain he had... i wonder why..

N i dunno how to comfort him seriously...

I know sentences such as :

"Dun be sad la...''

''Still got dozens of girls out there for u.."

All are bullshit and wont do any good..

So i just keep quiet and listen to him...

No matter what...

Teck,

U're still the best.

N i though of my ex-bf suddenly..

*Sigh*

I hurt him so deeply last tym...

N i dun seem to care when he call o sms me~

Man...

N Calvin told me that i changed...

I hate that word.

Did i?

I changed?

I dunno...

Perhaps.

*Sigh*

Later on,

I saw Qi Yu's blog...

Happily describe the day we went to Seoul Garden...

Yeah~ i really had a great time ^-^

Then i saw pictures they took in Ricky's bbq party...

Really regret that i din go :(

I shld stop "zhong se qin you" so much d~ damn

Sometimes i'm wondering...

Those faces i see everyday,

Voices i heard everytym...

Are they really there for me?

I am thrist for friendship..

Real friendship.

I need ppl who cares and i hope that ppl who i care can feel that i am there for them...

Sometimes i really feel neglected...

People dun appreciate me and they dun care bout me although i really done my best as a fren..

I am mearly an invisible soul for ppl around me~

I dun understand.

Y?!

Don't i deserve better?

Or i don't?

T_T

*Sigh*

I just wish to be visible..

Hope that ppl can notice me and ask me to join them for some event~

I just wish to be visible.

Aidilfitri reminds me of how much pork i ate...

I am so fucking tired after playing for so many days.

U just went back home and i still waiting for the call to tell me that u reached.

I feel so wrenched.

Lots of mosquito bites.

The itches are really irritating.

Mum lectured me whole night.

I have to think over bout myself.

I need to change.

Seriously i need to change.

I am lost cos i din return home for so long.

I need to face the wall and think of my behaviour.

U still haven call me yet.

I wish i can change, mum. I really do.

I'm trying so hard sometimes to remember what u taught me.

I've been a bad girl and i disgraced u like what u've told me.

Should i call u?

I'm lost and desparate for some reason.

I wanna be a better girl.

I wanna be a better person.

Please dun let me dream of Resident Evil again, it's really freaking me out.