The itch rose up towards me again... Sigh *

So many things wondering in my mind now~

This morning i was shocked to death...

My grandpa was chocked and nearly fainted... Whole family shouting and crying for a long time...

I stood in a corner not knowing what to do...

Heartattack..

I went to Halo Cafe this evening to apply job as a singer there...

Hope i get the job... still waiting for them to call...

Suddenly thought of A Teck...

Poor thing...

Somehow i really can feel the pain he had... i wonder why..

N i dunno how to comfort him seriously...

I know sentences such as :

"Dun be sad la...''

''Still got dozens of girls out there for u.."

All are bullshit and wont do any good..

So i just keep quiet and listen to him...

No matter what...

Teck,

U're still the best.

N i though of my ex-bf suddenly..

*Sigh*

I hurt him so deeply last tym...

N i dun seem to care when he call o sms me~

Man...

N Calvin told me that i changed...

I hate that word.

Did i?

I changed?

I dunno...

Perhaps.

*Sigh*

Later on,

I saw Qi Yu's blog...

Happily describe the day we went to Seoul Garden...

Yeah~ i really had a great time ^-^

Then i saw pictures they took in Ricky's bbq party...

Really regret that i din go :(

I shld stop "zhong se qin you" so much d~ damn

Sometimes i'm wondering...

Those faces i see everyday,

Voices i heard everytym...

Are they really there for me?

I am thrist for friendship..

Real friendship.

I need ppl who cares and i hope that ppl who i care can feel that i am there for them...

Sometimes i really feel neglected...

People dun appreciate me and they dun care bout me although i really done my best as a fren..

I am mearly an invisible soul for ppl around me~

I dun understand.

Y?!

Don't i deserve better?

Or i don't?

T_T

*Sigh*

I just wish to be visible..

Hope that ppl can notice me and ask me to join them for some event~

I just wish to be visible.