Saturday, July 29, 2006

Yesterday's adventure...

My day started when i pour a glass of warm honey to myself...
N i heard my throat screming in joy...
What the heck...

i had my voice exam yesterday... hmm... it went well i guess... quite satisfied but still, it can be better...
Thanks Su Mei for being my accompanist and well...
Singing in the group class is just a fame for 10 minutes (if your songs happened to be that long)
Y? cos ppl probably will forget what u did after that... (except for Davina of course... >.<)

Later in the evening, i went to Regeant Hotel for the performance, just to sing a few songs from our Refugee: Images...

When i stood there and sing i realize people who walked pass us, who sat comfortably in the lounge and those who actually enjoyed our performance so much (an african guy with an artist cap on him) gave us different expression and i suddenly felt like...

Musicians are here to entertain people... and it's like... hmmm... well, i know a lot of ppl started reading my blog and i tend to be conservative when i try to speak my mind out...

Well, let's just forget it, i've no more energy to start out a trouble for myself...hmm.. I will keep those in my little pea brain for the time... *silence!*

I'm extremely exhausted lately..never felt in my life before... i mean, i did, but this is sort of different... Opps, back to my story... after Regeant Hotel's performance we went back to the lobby where we prepared ourselves before the show and we found uh... 17x2 sandwiches and a pot of mee hoon lying there waiting for us to devoure it... and obviously it's not enough to feed 17 mouths
(when 1 Bryan=10 Hui Kee..haha!)


Therefore, Mr. Chong, which is one of our directors brought us out to feed our tummy again... he always treat us with fabulous meals!
::many thanks to him ^-^::

I tell u, when i see Bryan eat i seriously pray that in future i wont get a kid like him... if not i will definately (like what Mr. Chong says) kill myself after i gone brankrup! He seriously ate 6 bowls or izit 7? of rice!! OMG... i sat beside him and i was like...
Bloody hell...

But he is really a kind person.. spend more than an hour just to fetch everyone back although he himself if tired like a bear... *many thanks to u!*

However, when i reach the area where i stayed, it was pitch black...
No electric again?!!... ass hole... out of so many days y must be tat day when i am not in my BF's hz?

Moreover, what's more scary is that the whole hz is empty... it was pitch black and i am all alone in that hz without a tourch in my hand!
No joking matter, i really freak out...

I must admit that i honestly afraid of the dark more than anyone else... i dun even dare to walk to my room... i cant see anything!! my hp's batt is running low!!
So, i hide in Ee Jun's room cos his room has an emergency light... which i hope it can be carried around...
To make it worst, i called my hzmate and he din pick up the phone.. i was really panic..!!

In the mean time, i sms my BF telling him i am freak out...
All he does was
"Y scare? u have been staying in that hz for so long..."
and
"hmmm... poor dear dear..."

WTF?

Well darling...
Just let me rot....

Finally i got to JUliet's hp and ask them rush bek before i fainted... haha~

Man,
Cant u just make me feel better? what the heck?
Sometimes being emotional is really a no-no in a relationship...
that's y i only complaint here in my blog ....
I stop complaint straight to his face since then.....
Yup, silence is golden...
And also the key to avoid unnecessary fight...

Just like some ppl scream into a bottled water and pour the water out... meaning all the troubles will just went deep into Earth...

Yup, that's wat i am doing.. dun bloody complain bout how idiot i am cos this is the way i release myself from dissatisfaction and anger...
Plus...disappointment...

I dunno what to do when he is emotional... I know he was frus when he is sick and with his work perhaps.. moreover he had to use more than 1 hour just to fetch me back...
I tried to show him how i appreciate i am with wat he did but he dun seem to get the point...

Do u know how worried i am to see him sick? and all the happy feelings went downhill when he is unwell... But still, he duno how to take care of himself... all my words fell on deaf ears...

All i did was care....

On the other hand, i need care too when i am facing troubles... (of course this did not include the blackout)


*Sigh*

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*Update (31/7/06):

Well... just like what i've said.. i will only fuss here in my blog and not in front of him... hmmmm... and i am glad i did that.... cos i am the one who think nonsense all the time... and he did feel guilty when i brought up the incident bout the blackout (i can tell by his expression and stutter way of reply...hehe ^-^)

However, the reason i dun wanna erase that (like what i did for the previous post) is because i did feel bad for tat day... so... whatever i dunno what the heck i doing... haha~

But... i'm glad to have him by my side.... \(^~^)/ *Hugzz*



Tuesday, July 25, 2006

hmmm.....

Recently i discovered a blog which i quite fond of...

Her name is Mamoyo... i dunno who she is... just happened to read Kenny Sia's blog n her name is there...

Well, i love the way she blogs... she's that type of uh... typical city girl?
hmmm... straight forward and extremely open-minded...

I love her quotes.. really meaningful... well, only some of them...

Well, i rememeber Su Mei told me Rachel once told her that love is just like a little kitten...
U cant be taking granted on it too much...
Constant hurting will kill the little kitten...

Love is fragile...

Kittens may be leaving the owner although it still loves and adore the owner a lot...
If the kitten feels despair and hurt...

Reminder for Hui Kee* : Life's like that, dun clinge on that too much... U're dealing with different people with different personality!

Friday, July 21, 2006

It's a bad day

I love Sean's T-Shirt with the words
"Love is for Losers"
on it... haha

Yes i am having a bad day
I could sing a sad song and turn it around so that i can see happy faces looking at me
I wish i could
But i couldn't

My soul's wrenched and everything turns upside down
Every cells in my body struggles to free themselves from the thick fog inside me
The smoke of darkness crawl silent, cruely into every parts of my body
I'm weak... So weak to even defend it for myself

The sound of viol melts into my heart
Eventually all the notes spread out like thousand needles
Poking through my vains and vessels
Crushing my bones and devouring my flesh

The muse in me love play tricks to my brain
Magnifing every dust around me
Vomitting the poison into my brittle pea brain
Big waves were create by gentle breeze anyway

Dun turn your back on me
I need your smile to warm me
I need your hug to protect me from all the harm around me
I need you by my side

But...

I'm tired...
Tired of being a clown
Tired of putting a mask to face the world
And those people who meant hell lot to me
When everything i say falls to deaf ears

I hate the feeling of guilt
I hate the feeling of sorry
I beg for forgiveness and
Cleanse the sins i've created

I fear the feeling of lost
I fear to regret
To crush a future with my bare hands
To crush a heart i dun meant to hurt

I'm just extremely exhausted...
I wanna be free

Thursday, July 20, 2006

I'm 20!! tra la la l ala...

Well, i am officially a 20-bies now~
one more year to merdeka...kekekez

Just celebrated my b'day yesterday... it was the most present-received b'day... !!

I got a total of 26 sms, 8 received present and 1 pending one...

Hmm...
It might not be a lot to some of u but it means a lot to me...

And i actually got a lot of soft toys tis year >.<" man.. on my 20's

Hong Hong
surprised me with a tortoise with a bunch of leaves on the head... damn cute!

Pei San, Carolyn and Terence bought me a teddy bear with a outrangeous big head and a pathetic little body.. haha~ i dun dare to hug it to sleep scare i might break his head...

All my hzmates thrown me a surprised party the night before my birthday... i was really touched that i actually dropped my tears, without anyone noticing it..They gave me a cow.. -_-"
with pink mouth and a bunch of hair on the head... it was quite hard i couldn't hug it to sleep..

My another hzmate, Terence Au gave me a tin of Mango cake from Hong Kong... absolutely love that packaging~!! it's so so adorable!! ^Q^

N the most incredible thing is my own PPG club members... they actually bought my presents when i am with them!! w/out me noticing it.. amazing!! haha... Su Mei n Cindira bought me a ''The Nightmare before Christmas'' holder for me.. i mean, i dunno what is that supposed to call... coffin?? uh.. it's for my recorder basically.. i wanted to buy it since last 2 sems... hmm... and also 4 pieces of assorted cake from Secret Recipe >.<'' eat till i wanna vomit... My aunt gave me a shirt from Anas-something.. i couldn't remember.. very special shirt where i need to tie it up to keep the wavy look on the shirt...

My cousin gave me a blue braclet... with hearts and diamonds... woooOOoo... it's gorgeous! ^o^

I got an Adidas bag pack from my BF ^-^ although is not really the color i wanted but still i love it :) hee~ but my mood went down drain when i saw him so sick... poor thing... sigh...
and i'm so sad i cant do anything to help him... :(
*sayang sayang my dear dear ^-^*

Last but not least, Sean spend me an awesome meal... hehe drool~
We went to Chilis for lunch tat day and eat till i dropped!i mean, we dropped... haha~
And also my anut who brought me for dinner in Tai Tong restaurant... althought the food is not really nice for me but i'm thankful for that wonderful night :)

Well, i will post up the pictures for my b'day... although only a bit but still.. it's funny... haha
And....

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  • Man, i'm so touched!!

    This is the most meaningful present i got for tis year!!

    I LOVE U BABOON SING YEE!!!!!!!!!!!!

    Stupid bitch la u sing yee... Publish my pictures lidat~
    Oh ya, dear u might wan to see it too... the sesat fellow got mention your name ter.. ahhaha

    Wahahaha!! thank u thank u my dearest frenz!! muaks muaks!

    AmZzZzz RoXxxX!!

    Tuesday, July 11, 2006

    Refugee: Images

    Hear ye hear ye~

    This is the production i talked bout in my previous post...

    It's a musical called Refugee: Images performed by The Canticle Singers...


    Can see me not can see me not?!?! Ter Ter!!
    I took this picture from www.kakiseni.com

    This is the trailor for our musical which very soon will be shown in LRTs, and 7-11!



    Notice the picture in the first slide... I'm in there!! with a sesat post... XD

    This is the first musical production i am in... (except the UCSI recall...) N i am excited bout it!! But the rehearsal fucking killing sial...

    Thursday, July 06, 2006

    I wonder.....

    I wonder what kinda cell builds me...
    What holds me together...

    I seems to have really freaking emotional problems...

    Sometimes how i wish i'm alone...
    I dunno y~
    Just let me be cos i dun think that the world will understand me?

    Hmmm...

    I tends to let ppl decide my mood...
    A sigh of yours would affect my mood for the whole day..
    Tis really bothers me a lot~

    I hate myself behaving this way seriously...
    How marvelous it is if some kinda scientist would just invent some happy pills?

    :)

    Anywayz, I am totally crazy over Rod Steward...

    Listen to his song really calms me down...

    I was really down just now~

    Sometimes love is really annoying...
    I dunno how to handle my own feelings...

    I am still learning...

    Just dun ignore me...
    That's good enough~

    I wonder....

    It's such a long time i din really talk bout my life...

    Mostly cos i am too bz and way too lazy to type it all out... thou the draft of the essay is in my head...

    Well, as time goes by.. i started to understand quite a lot of things which some of them were planted in our mind since we were born.. We were too careless to notice it that's all..

    Anywayz, been thru quite a lot this year, especially this semester...
    I encounter new challenges, new friends and

    Learning how to handle my emotions..

    My cells under my skins are thirst for prominence...
    Hmmm.. mayb is a bit too harsh...
    Just need some reckonition...

    I am so lack of patient to myself...

    I remembered my aunt once told me bout metamorphosis...
    Human being are extremely fragile...
    There's one common thing in us is ...
    "Keep repeating a same mistake, no matter small o big.. in the whole life, with or without noticing it... and normally nobody will take note to destroy that tiny dust which causes a fatal disease "

    At first i tot this is bullshit... But as many things around evoled... i started to understand what this really means....

    Personality... no, attitude is more suitable... is the hardest thing to handle in a popularity...
    Human are build up with complex tissues and cells and hell knows what they are thinking bout?!

    Well, people normally will not clique or mix with a person who is consider out of the band wave... However, giving judgement to a person u do not know at all is really unfair..
    By all means took away the chance of knowing another soul...

    The worst thing i'm noticed in my community is judge a person thru another person's eye...

    However, what i found interesting lately is that...
    People who seems to be hopelessly unrelated seems to launch a huge step nearer to me...

    On the other hand, those who i thought to be an angel is actually an angel with hidden horns and a spiky tail...

    The only thing to find a person's real identity is to know more bout them...
    Good or bad...

    Well, i guess that's life...
    Challenge grows each day as time crawl passed us silently ...

    Therefore,
    In order to survived in this cruel world, choose to be a predator... not a prey...

    Who knows one day u might be hunt by the person closes to u?