If she dun care, I wont care as well !

Man... so fucking regret to come bek home..

The weather sucks

I cant get to practice my piano

And most importantly..

I heartaches..

Why must she do this to me? !

Every words that come out from her mouth is like thousands sword piercing deep into my heart...

The first moment i step into the hz with excited mood and happy face smiling and jumping around her, feeling glad to be home..

She stared at me coldly and barked "If next tym u really marry him, I dunno how would i survived..."

I was like.. WTF?! common gimme a break... I just got home k? and of course.. forget bout d kissing on mummy's face... iskh~

It's one year and 9 months d for God's sake! Why cant she get over it?!

Y she still thinks that he steal me away from her?!

Cant she be more reseanable?! damn.. i was so pissed! neva been so pissed with her before!

(except for the past one year... it's all the same thing repeating itself..)

Stop telling me those bullshit as if everything is my fault

Stop provoking me and hinting me tat u are doing those just to hurt my feelings!

How come my sis can be rude to dad and i NEVA EVER raise my voice before in the hz?

How come my sis can get low grades and i'll be grounded for getting low grades?

How come my sis can be lazy and not to do hzwork and i'll be blame not to do hzwork even if i just got home from KL?

She told me that she wanna learn to let go and wadever bullshit... Yeah right~ if she can do that she wont say those things to hurt me~!

DAMMIT!!

Well if she dun care bout my feeling...

I wont fucking care too!!

I wont care bout any shit she tell me and i wont care bout wat i'm going to do next! Since she dun care bout my feelin at all,

Why shld i worry bout her everytym even when i'm in KL?!

And i hate myself that although i everytime said that i will do this i will do tat,

But i neva did anything for my own sake!!

dammit!~