I'm a broken wing angel...

For the first time in my life...

I feel that i dun have a soul....

Those flash back just cant stop running like a movie in my mind...

How well he treated me,
How he made my life to the fullness,

Especially this year's Valentine and last yer's christmas...

Fellows... i cant stop crying... although i have no more tears to shed....

I'm still sick.. and i smell Panadol in my breathe...

I cant even stand up straight... I neva feel so damn fucked up in mywhole life...

I cry when i am eating,
I cry when i am bathing,
I even cry when i'm watching my favourite cartoon Spongebob Squarepants...

I've been crying for more than 20 hours....

My heart bleed like mad....

I really hope i can turn bek time... to the days when we are so happy together...

I hate myself to changed

I HATE MYSELF!!!

I rather he's the one who leave me...


I hope that someone can lend me thier shoulder... i wish that i am in KL now and all my frens are with me....

I'm alone here in Muar and my mum hurts me as well...

I need someone...

And thanks Baboon for calling me and company me for whole night yesterday... and also Sean for keeping me company thru sms...

I feel like i used my bare hands...

N killed someone...

Someone who love me so so much.......

I can smell the fresh blood... dripping down my fingers...

And the stain will not fade away..........

My heart was crushed to thousand pieces....

I'm sorry my love........

Sorry for being cruel and heartless....

I really really hope Baboon is here with me......

Alone in d dark... no one company me ....

I need hugs...................

I need my frens...... I'm a nobody.........

I CANT STOP CRYING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND I AM STILL SICK AND GOING TO FAINT SOON.....

H..E...L...P...

M.......E.........